My dad used to be an alcoholic and he passed away in 2021 due to alcohol. I had a dream where my dad and I was in a car and he was drunk badly and he started driving really fast in the car with me In it and I remember begging him to slow down and he was laughing telling me not to worry and I remember feeling scared and kept saying you shouldn’t be driving dad you’re in no fit state. Then we got to a house and he went to sleep for abit and so did I then when we woke up he was still just as drunk and tried driving again but I kept saying you’re in no fit state and I don’t want you to crash. I don’t remember what happened after that but at the end of the dream I text my dad saying I can’t do this without you daddy I’m sorry. I’ve recently been diagnosed with cancer for the second time.
Thank you for sharing your dream with me. Dreams, especially those involving deeply personal experiences and emotions, can often reveal important insights into our psyche and reflect our fears, desires, and unresolved issues.
In your dream, the car represents a journey or the direction of your life, while your father symbolizes both a significant relationship and also elements of your past, particularly regarding his struggle with alcoholism. The fact that he is driving while intoxicated reflects your concerns about his past behavior and the dangers that arose from it. It indicates that you may feel like you are reliving some of the fear and anxiety you experienced during his struggles with alcohol when he was alive. As the passenger, your pleading for him to slow down signifies your desire for stability, safety, and control, especially in light of your current health crisis.
Your feelings of fear and helplessness in the dream can also symbolize your worries regarding your cancer diagnosis. You may feel as though your father's reckless driving mirrors the chaos and lack of control you perceive in your own life, particularly when facing a serious health challenge. It may also indicate feelings of vulnerability, as you navigate your journey with cancer, feeling unprepared or unsupported.
When your father falls asleep, it can signify a retreat into avoidance—both on his part (representative of his struggles with alcohol) and perhaps your own propensity to escape from the overwhelming emotions of your diagnosis. The attempt to drive again after waking reflects a persistent struggle for control, despite being unfit or unprepared to do so, illustrating the tension you may feel about facing life’s challenges.
The final text message is particularly poignant, revealing your deep emotional connection with your father and a profound sense of loss. Expressing that you can't do this without him suggests feelings of isolation and longing for support and guidance, which is understandable given the difficult situation regarding your health.
Overall, this dream could be your subconscious processing your emotions about your father's death, your ongoing health battle, and the fear of navigating these experiences alone. It reflects both a struggle with past traumas and a fear of future uncertainties.
Moving forward, consider speaking to someone you trust about your feelings—whether it's a friend, family member, or therapist. Reflecting on your dream can also serve as a way to confront your fears, allow for healing, and to find a path that honors both your past with your father and your present challenge. Remember, it’s important to reach out for support as you navigate these tumultuous waters.